Oh Screw It

Fine I won't put the blog on hiatus. Complaints were made. I'll keep posting, you apes.

John was right, I need to keep chronicling my progress outside success with women.

I think I'm on the right step. My Remixing LIFE 5 mix is just a totally different mix than any I've ever done before. It feels more raw, more emotional, and takes you through an entire story. I just sat down and mixed it on the fly, drunk and high out of my gourd.

I wanted this mix to be at times like a walk through a burgeoning romance...but at points to also possess lightheartedness and humor. The opening track featuring Kanye West is the song where you meet. A commonality - everyone loves Kanye. Turn Me On is that first breath of the romance, the moment both of you realize that "it's on". The audible orgasm in the song is representative of the spiritual orgasm one can have when they realize just how -on- it is. The potential of the coming session builds itself up in your mind and demands release. Going into Hush Boy, I feel like this is the ascent into those first few minutes after the connection is made - they are irreplaceable and fantastic. Up until the song Race, It is the miniature honeymoon period when the two of you are just amazed by the chemistry and the potential between you.

The song Race is almost farcical in this context. I feel it puts its preceeding track, Moving Too Fast, into perspective. Moving Too Fast is a highly emotional song, and I feel like it would bring two lovers close together during a "moment" on the dance floor. If I were any less of a smart-ass, I wouldn't bring in Race. But I do. I feel like Race puts a lot of the emotional seriousness in the first half of the mix into a comical perspective. You can't take yourself too seriously. If Race is the comic interruption that disrupts your session, Love is Gone is the intense reassurance that all is well. You dive in with even more passion than before. Chang represents a coasting sensation. I love this track because of that. It just feels like progressing without actual motion, almost a musical hovering of sorts. This song is the moment during intercourse when you are concerned with neither foreplay or orgasm. The musical center of sex. Neither shore in sight. U Wanna Little of This brings the mix to a high point with its vocals, and the remaining two songs form a very nice coda, as a chilled-out but still hard-hitting celebration.

Very happy with it on the whole. Download here: http://www.djmixtape.net/dl.php?m=4319

Hat? Eaten.

Well shit. Let me hop in the WAY BACK machine to my last post, "I just hope she doesn't think I'm trying to date her. That will not be happening. I am just acting through my own intentions lately and reaping the benefits."

This is half-true. Update: We did fuck. Many times. And it was good. The more I got to know this girl the more I liked her. It turns out she and I are amazingly similar and we totally fell for eachother. By the 3rd meetup I had dropped the "no way I'm dating her" mindset and just....Acted through my own intentions. And I reaped the benefits. We're dating now, like all officially and such. I forgot how much I miss having some kind of stable relationship. It puts a lot into perspective.

Since I really won't be able to go out and pick up women while I'm seeing someone exclusively, I need to devote some time to my business and my health. I think I just had a big chip on my shoulder after my last relationship and now I'm content to just let things be for now. Blog will be going on hiatus for a little while since there will be little to no pickup news to report.

Firsts

Short post. Way too tired to say much. I've been busy nonstop this weekend and its great. First day2 tonight. I could say i hit LMR but i wasn't too concerned with overcoming it. The girl seemed genuinely concerned with not fucking on the 'first date' and i really didn't care. I gave her a preview of our next date by pressing her up against the wall and letting her feel how into her I was. According to her I'm the perfect height to fuck her standing up. Very good example today of "however you feel she feels". We'll see where this goes. I know i'll fuck this girl sooner or later, no rush. I just hope she doesn't think I'm trying to date her. That will not be happening. I am just acting through my own intentions lately and reaping the benefits. Great things are coming my way soon. Tomorrow I'm going to try to close the girl who runs the karaoke at a local bar (from a prior blog post). I'm also going to try to follow thru on a few numbers I got and might be able to swing a good d2 out of one of 'em, but I'm not too confident.

Thought of the moment: it's really easy to get a makeout. Really. Fucking. Easy.

If anyone is interested, another mix is coming down the pipes and it's shaping up to be better than the last one. Grittier and sexier to go with my newfound sexual confidence. Due to a number of technical difficulties with my mixing laptop it'll be a few days I think, but I'll get the kinks out and produce RML4 my mid-week. I'd like to find a better way to publish and distribute these mixes and eventually make them a regular scheduled thing.

Blueprint Match

GOD DAMNIT I AM CHARGED. I saw a girl on the subway who was my perfect 'blueprint match'. Large chested, fashionable, shoulder length brown hair, amazing face...not too skinny but certainly nothing considered "fat". She was, in a word, the sexiest woman I've seen since I last saw my Ex. HOLY GOD. This is INTENT. I waited too long to open her. I got lucky - she got off at the same stop. My opener was weak, i waited too long.

I don't see girls like this all the time. This was a different feeling to anything I've had recently. My LORD was I amped up seeing her. That's INTENT. I have no words. She drove me into an animalistic RAGE. There were a million things going through my head..I was sitting REALLY close to a woman whose number I'd just gotten on the train platform...there were tons of other people...excuses abound. I'm just glad i even TRIED to open even if it was too little to late.

How the hell do I cope with this? How do I practice abundance when a woman who looks like that is SO RARE right now? I mean I see HOTTIES all the time...maybe I'm just not looking through the right lens. Maybe I should reconsider in the morning. All I know is NOW i have the reference experience of being totally and commandingly leveraged. I want to harness this all the time.

Redemption, Salvation and Salivation!

OK, i kept you children waiting for the new mix but I PROMISE it was worth the wait. This is by FAR the best mix I've made in recent times. No sloppy transitions here...even the hard ones went off without a hitch. This mix is FULL of references to my past: I lead off the set with an OLD school track from my High School DJing days. Anyone into late 90's trance will go wild for it. I work in some early 2000s Kimblee, some Madonna/JT, a U2 remix, an exclusive remix of a song FRESH off of Coldplay's new CD, a throw back to my old nerd role-playing-game days, some Seal, a BT mashup that was musically VERY challenging but so fucking satesfying to execute....then I finish it off with a pair of great house tunes...one with a reggaeton feel. During the last two tracks I bring you through most of the other songs of the set for sort of a callback feeling. It's a new technique for me, but I feel like once I get it down strongly it will be RIDICULOUSLY effective. Let me know what you think - this is my most experimental set but the one I feel I did the most with. I was very strongly considering ending the set on "The Dance", which is the track where I did most of the "callback" work, but I was just feeling the mix SO hard I had to keep it going, and brought it into Run The Show. I want to hear comments either way (should I have kept it going? Killed it after The Dance?) Either way - DOWNLOAD, LISTEN and COMMENT! Without any further interruption, hype, pomp or circumstance, Remixing LIFE very proudly presents: RML 3.0 - A Trip Through Time!

Whoops!

No new mix yet. I mixed a couple things but I literally FORGOT TO PRESS RECORD. Sorry kids. For the six people who read this, I beg thy forgiveness! I'll get a GREAT new set up soon.

Project Gansevoort is almost at a close. My apartment literally has received comments that it, "Looks like a hotel". Mission successful. The Cortez Initiative is slowly gaining steam but not as hard as I'd like - I'm not taking EVERY interaction to its hilt. It WILL get there. I"m feeling different already. The RSD internship project is out of my hands by now - I've put in my app and if Toli doesn't get back to me I'll just assume I didn't make the cut. That would surprise me given my background, experience, and general demeanor, but it shall be what it shall be. No Worries!

I had a ton of fun tonight but I just didn't tap my intent hard enough. Once again my worst nights are the best nights most guys could ever ask for, but my goal right now is single dimensional. P U L L. All that there is. Pull or go home and fucking whack it to internetporn. THERE IS NO OTHER OPTION. I'm trying to adopt a warrior mindset - get killed on the battlefield trying instead of cowering safely in 'friend territory'. I'm slowly working towards that goal but it's hard. I'm protecting an ego that barely even exists these days. FUCK IT.

I feel it - it's SO close. Don't be surprised if my next blog entry is related to me pulling. It's THAT close and immanent. BOOYAH.

New mix in progress, as well as YouTube GLORY. Big things are happening on the East Side kids. The only question is...are you prepared?

The Weekend and a New Mix!

Who even remembers what happened this weekend? The only thing I recall was Loren and I pulling two chicks from a local bar back to my apartment and NOT banging them. I don't know how into them we were, but that's a fucking hell of a 1st set of the night. He showed up at like 11pm on a Sunday night and we got hammered on cheap vodka.

My apartment was an utter mess and all my geeky nerdy shit was all over. Congruence tests out the wazoo. Didn't even let it get to me. I'm just amazed at the facility with which we pulled them back. Loren has an amazing talent for making that happen, and I have to appologize for kind of yelling at him via text message. That was just sloppy communication. Good damned job for a sunday though.

It's tough to communicate effectively when emotions are running high, so I think it's important for me to keep a clear head and not overreact, which I have a tendency to do.

In other news, I'm going to work on a new mix before I head out tonight. Thanks to everyone who IMed me with feedback about the first one. Post your comments HERE so I know people are reading! Look for the new mix later tonight.